Labor Day Mixed Emotions Weekend.

It's been a choppy weekend filled with ups and downs but I have to say that, I love Austin. I've never been with someone that was so completely opposite of me, yet find myself wholeheartedly connecting to. This is what relationships are all about. I'm thankful that I have him in my life. However, I can't seem to wonder what it will be like if we were to go our separate ways. I guess I shouldn't think like that because the present seems to slip away when I focus too much on the future. Past, present, future; it's always the middle child that gets neglected and I refuse to let that happen.

Thank you, cutie. For everything.

Wednes-Daisy

I've never had a boy tell me, "I love you." Today is the first day. And I said it back. I'm so happy with him. This hasn't been verbal yet but I think it'll happen soon. (: But today is the first day the "L" word has been mentioned and I literally started tearing. Why do I get so emotional when I'm treated with affection? >.< Maybe that's what happens when you're truly happy. People laugh so hard that they cry. They're in complete utter joy. So maybe when babies are born, the reason why they cry is because they're happy to be alive? I'm happy to be alive and to be surrounded by the people I love. I thank God for bringing Austin into my life and I ask that He watches over me and guides me through all the right paths to a great life. ♡

Capitalize On Your Assets.

Wow! 2010 has finally come to an end. I don't even know how many times I've blogged on here. The reasons were either, "not enough time" or I was far too happy/sad to grab my racing thoughts and put them on here. "LESS is MORE." That's what my father tells me and that's what I'm going to do with this blog entry.

This year, I think I've truly come to love myself for who I am. It's rather funny because I was just a bunch of random emotions this year; questioning who I was, what I wanted, who my true friends were. I'd be lying if I said it's all clear to me now, but I think that this past year of random and spontaneous mistakes, trials, achievements, -> EXPERIENCES have made me stronger. I have made some of my stupidest errors and some of my greatest achievements in 2010. I've experienced what it is like to be myself and be completely comfortable about it; YET! Still be accepted and LIKED because of my dorkiness. I experienced what it was like to be with a true gentleman and have him treat me like I was a true lady. I experienced what it was like to walk away from "date" and be fully and completely, 100% proud of myself and the events that happened; regret NOT! All of these being FIRSTS! However, like many things in life, I had a little help. The wonderful people I've met this past Fall semester, were amazing. I can't say that I'll never forget them but I'll cherish the memories for as long as I can! (Especially a few who I plan on bringing with me into this new year. :) And for those who I plan on leaving in the past, I am not bitter towards anyone! I have the same heart, just a new beat.
My words for you, with joy-filled-tears in my eyes, thanks for everything. <(^o^)>

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.
-Neil Gaiman

Love of the sorts.

I have an intense feeling for this insanely charming young man and quite frankly, I'm scared. Why? Who is to say why, really. All I know is that he's sweet, genuine, and everything I want. I feel as if he's my soul-mate and someone that is suppose to be in my life.
I've never had someone make it a point to call and ask me how my day is going, as soon as they got off of work. It's quite sweet but I'm disgusted at how much that makes me smile. Never before have I had someone care so much.
Through his flaws, I am able to see him for who he really is.
And I love every piece of him.
To his core.

"Όπου κι αν πάμε, πάμε με όλη την καρδιά σας."

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart." 

I love this quote.

<3

That Shit Eating Grin.

As of right now, I'm fucking inspired!! I want to open a print shop. Turmoil Release?
The Revolt?
Turquoise Moon?

Fuck the guys I used to like.

Fuck some of the girls I used to be friends with.

"I'm gonna do my thing and I'm not letting anybody stand in my way. Period." -Arnelle Lozada

FUCKING INSPIRED!! I want to draw!

I love my best friend and it goes both ways!

I'm Happy!!

Thoughts Of None Other.
Excellence has no limits.

E.V.

Marysville, WA

There's something majestic about this picture. Whenever I look at it, all my problems and all my fears disappear. I'm damned proud of this shot. I took it on my vacation in Washington. <3

The Creepy Crawlies Never Seem To Fade.

Sometimes, I hate the people I am friends with. Sometimes, I hate the person I am. I feel as if I'm slipping into this hole and forgetting who I am, what my purpose is in life. Everyone says, you can never know exactly what is going to happen in your future. Then why do they keep asking me what I want to do with my life? I hate how people are so optimistic. Can I please have someone that can be realistic with me, please? Tell me everything honestly. Tell me I'm a screw up. Tell me I'm wasting my life. I need it more than ever. 
You know what's bugging me, really? The closest people to me are the type of people I truly cannot stand.
I hate arrogant, narcissistic, immature kids. The ones that pride their actions on the opinions and approval of others. The ones that are so needy for affection that they'll settle for the sloppiest scum of a boy that shows them the slightest bit of attention. The ones that can never see their fault in a situation. Am I weird? That I don't want to get involved with activities people my age want to do? I've never been clubbing because I despise just the thought of it. A random guy grinding up on you as if you were a dog? Seriously? How is that lady like? How does that make you a gentleman I want to bring home? How are you a respectable person? Do you really expect people to take you seriously? I lack interests in all of the "rebellious" and "promiscuous" activities I once loved.
Obnoxious imbeciles = Drunk Fuckers. Just a side-note.
Although we are young, there's more to life than getting wasted and hooking up. The sad thing is, I feel many kids my age don't care. That's a scary thing; not caring. Do you know what you can do with "not caring?" I'm going on a tangent ramble. I feel so discontent with the people that surround me and I blame myself for every part of it.

Do you know what's inevitable in life? 

I wonder what's it is like to have a life of such substance; where your purpose is standing up for what you believe in and the people that follow you. That's some heavy shit, man.
I want a life with substantial meaning.