At A Loss.

What do I write about when I don't feel like writing? Should I be optimistic and think of all the wonderful things happening in my life as of now? Or should I make a list of all the things I need to complete. My high school English teacher didn't care for the word "things" so, let's start that over. Should I make a list of... "chores" that needs to be completed? I don't consider them to be chores per se. I'm at a loss for words. Let's see, there's chores, responsibilities, "to-do items". What else? How can I not think of any word?? And to say that the thesaurus was my best friend in college. Boo hiss!

'Till Later.

J.S.

The Hippie and the Cynic

Going through some of my older posts and laughing at the tone of my writing. I admire the fact that I was so optimistic and positive. How could I not be? If I didn't want to deal with a person or situation, I didn't. Ahh, the days. No responsibilities. Well, except for getting that 12 page paper finished by the end of the week and making sure all cookies were bought for deserving teachers, that is. But besides that, nothing. It's easy to be carefree when not a single person depends on you. Not even yourself.

How did life get so hard, anyway?

J.S.

A First For Everything.

Well, what do y'a know! My first post of the New Year! About 3 months in, that is.
Better late than never.
Is this post going to be about nothing but cliche sayings?
Possibly.
Any who. As of right now, I feel inspired.
Every other week or so I feel inspired. I make my to-do lists, see them through for about a few days and then, somewhere down the line, I lose myself. I get caught up in my fears, my anxiety, and then the doubt sinks in. It eats away at me. I lose every single ounce of motivation and fall into the same routine that got me... here.
Well, enough is enough. I'm tired of worrying about the same things that have worried me 8 years ago. I'm tired of losing sleep over things that I've lost sleep over last year.
This ends now. If it doesn't, I'll be writing this exactly blog post 4 years from now.

J.S.

Searching for Clarity Amidst This Tumultuous Storm of Life

Writer's block on my open-topic blog?

I hope I'm able to discover a path for myself. One that will enable me to pursue my passions. One that will keep my interests in the forefront of my life.

I want to build strength and demolish all of my doubts. 

If that's even possible.

E.V.

Flying on a string of hope.

For the future.
What will it be.
What won't it be.

Always A New in End.

We often don't see it, but it's there.

Muddled.

Another beautifully gloomy day.

Williams.

I love you. With all my heart. With every being. You are my best friend. You are my lover. You are the person I can confide in. You are everything to me.

Dear Universe,

Please keep my Dear safe and happy.

Sincerely,

J.S.

E.M.

What do I do? I miss you. I still believe that you're my soul mate and as of right now, I'm longing to just speak with you. How is your day going? What did you eat for breakfast? What was the first thing that came to mind when you first woke up? Do I ever cross your mind? I hope that you're happy.

You play an immense role in my process to maturity. Maybe we'll never speak again but you will forever hold a special place in my heart.

Dear Universe,

May I find the strength to let go of my pride and fears and find in me, the strength to rekindle our friendship.

Sincerely and with love,

J.S.

P.S. I miss you dearly and would love to see you face-to-face.

Reflection.

The ultimatum is that you can either focus all your energy on the negative aspects of your life or you can be thankful and grateful for the positive things and people. I sometimes reflect on my life with a saddened view of all the things that went wrong and situations that never happened. Currently, I see things in a different light. I see things with light. I have never been so happy with the people that I'm surrounded with. It does sound cliche however, it is trueL: surround yourself with the people that bring you positive vibes. Life isn't about the high school drama, no. It's about finding balance and peace from within. When you're content, it shows and reflects in everything you do.

XOXO E.V.

Rebirth.

Life is so much easier to live when you open your heart out to people and allow them to see you for your true self. As I'm nearing the sweet age of 22, I feel as though I have so much of the world and life to experience that I want to rid any and all negativity that may possibly loom over my head in this new year awaiting me.

I've never been so excited for my birthday month! I must create a an April bucket list. (:

Cheers,
E.V.

23... And Counting.

I believe in soul mates and you are it.
My blanket of infinite security.
The rhythm in my drive.
The love of my life.

When being yourself includes someone else.

Paper Cut.

How I loathe the fact that I left two papers and a short story for the last minute.
Tralaalala.. Falala!

Gazing,
Marveling at her Beauty.
I see wrinkles from her smile but sadness in her eyes.
What's wrong with life? Nothing..
Yet.

Tushe?
Cheers?

Until next time, dear friend.
Cheers.

Garden Daze

Secret Garden.

Had a lovely shoot with my close friend Lia last week. Here's a shot she did, one of the photographer for the day, me!

Cheers, J.S.

Alternate Universe.

Sometimes I feel as though I have an alter ego. One who I wouldn't quite say is more intelligent than me, but possibly a more in-depth individual. When I tap into this person, I begin to see my true feelings and am able to harness, control, and express them in a well articulated manner. It's quite odd. I haven't seen this side of me for a while; this calm, serene, old soul. If it's not too much to say, I miss you dearly and I think we should schedule regulatory one-on-one time.

Yes, that's exactly correct. I am indeed speaking with myself. If you can't hold a conversation with your own self, then with who can you?

I'm a bit crunched for time at the moment, but I'll see you tonight?

Mood: Hopeful, relaxed.

Cheers, E.V.

Revival.

It's been a while, dear friend and I apologize for the neglect. BUT! Good news in store, I'll be returning to you very shortly. I've missed you dearly and quite frankly, I wish to continue our relationship. New posts, ASAP! I promise.

XOXO, E.V.

Austin, I love you.

So much.
I can't picture a day with out you, baby.

<3

Happy Halloween Weekend!

My father and I bought bunch of pumpkins from Safeway and here's a photo of just a few of them! The one on the far right is 27 lbs. xP Crazy! Though I'm not exactly sure what we're going to carve yet, I'm pretty sure it'll be a fun experience. (;

Indifferent.

I love you but I could just care less about your life or fixing anything between us.
You tend to bring out the most negative emotions from within me and it's just bothersome. So rather than pining away at how I won't let you get the best of me, I'm throwing my towel in.

Out of sight, out of mind.